August 27, 2025

When the Bottom Falls Out: Stories of Awakening

“The challenge is not sustaining the silence (on retreat), but bringing the silence with you when you leave.”

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2, four day residential retreats, 1 optional
July 27, 2024
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June 29, 2025

In this dharma talk from the final day of our recent summer silent retreat, Chodo Sensei explores what it means to practice without seeking reward.

Through the powerful story of 13th-century nun Mugai Nyodai, whose awakening came when the bottom fell out of her water bucket, and a poem by Marie Howe about a dog transfixed by moonlight, this talk explores mushotoku: the art of gaining nothing.

Throughout the talk, Chodo weaves together intimate stories of caregiving, the challenges of spiritual ego, and the paradox of diligent effort (“shojin”) that aims to attain nothing.

From cleaning a dying friend to a hospital chaplain learning to practice without robes, discover how true shojin means showing up fully present—not to become something, but to be with what is without clinging.

MUSIC

Heart Sutra by Kanho Yakushiji –  Buddhist priest and musician of the Rinzai sect and Imaji temple in Imabari, Japan. In 2003, he formed “KISSAQUO”, a songwriting duo based in Kyoto.

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Koshin Paley Ellison